I thought it's kind of funny that they locked the doors. As we stood in front of them and gave our press conference. The barricaded Bachman Hall became a metaphor for the lack of transparency and honesty that is a historical characteristic of our university. Like I've said many, times it is this lack of integrity at my alma mater that I am struggling to change, so the locked doors only encourage me to push harder. I'm inspired to surge forth, because the currently militant reaction to the Save UH/Stop UARC coalition is an indicator that we are beginning to shed light into an institution that has been in the dark for many years.
People inside UH and Without are getting very nervous, and it is reflected in the actions of Interim President David McClain's actions. Speaking of, I think the actions of Dr. McClain raise an interesting observation I've made. The recent over-reactions to UARC opponents, such as increasing the police presence at my own graduation ceremony, is totally out of character. I've dealt with Dr. McClain on several occasions. He's a very smooth operator. He prefers to engage people in conversation. He wants it to look like he is being as cordial as possible. The recent actions of the administration don't reflect any of this. I think Dr. McClain is under some severe pressure to tow a certain line and project a certain image.
I'm not going to blame the disrespectful actions of the administration on Dr. McClain. I'm going to gamble instead. The fact is that Dr. McClain has the capability of stopping this UARC, and we are depending on him to make that decision. In order to make the decision to stop the UARC. He is going to have to see through all the pressure that is being placed on him from above, and have the courage to set a bold path based on the truth he feels in his own heart.
Do I think Dr. McClain will do this? To tell you the truth I do not have a lot of evidence to make a conjecture. I haven't had enough personal interaction with David McClain in order to know how virtous of a human being he is. But I have had the opportunity to look into his eyes and I did not see a cold hearted human being. I saw someone who wanted to talk to me but felt trapped by the political circumstances surrounding us. My intuition tells me that Dr. McClain wants to make this decision on his own, and he wants to make the right decision. Sure, he probably has a very different belief system than I do when it comes to a lot of things (especially the military in Hawaii, and on campus) but I am not stuggling against people's ideologies. Such a thing would be too hippocritical.
What I am struggling against are the types of systems that trap those within them from making ethical decisions based on what they feel is their own inner truth. Currently, if Dr. McClain were to make a decision about the UARC, I believe he would decide for whatever choice aleviated the most political tension surrounding him, and stabilized his position. Such reasons aren't conducive to building an institution of integrity and truly global originality. What I want to work towards building is an atmosphere at UH that is conducive to Dr.McClain feeling more comfortable with making a decision that will come from the inner voice of his heart, and not from an analysis of who has the power. I suppose my end goal is to build a better world where the expression of our inner truths is possible for everyone of us, and our struggle at UH is an interconnected peace of this larger goal.
I don't want to come across like I am being easy on Dr. McClain. To live by the sounds of our hearts is perhaps the hardest, and most challenging path through life that one can take. The pressures of the outside world to curve our paths and decisions will always be there. Life would not be life without these obstacles, because what we must do is confront them and see through the turbulence and interference that they cause. A man must stay focused on living from the truth within him, in order to grow as a person. This takes incredible courage.
What I am asking Dr. McClain to do is see the epic nature of the decision he faces. To look past the threats people are giving him to his job, and the threats to his reputation. To look past the future of his career, and have faith that the well being of his family will be taken care of if he gets fired for the decision that he makes. I want Dr. McClain to see the threat UARC poses to our university's future and the spirit of the community. I want to see stopping UARC as an opportunity to start cleaning out the corruption that surrounds our university, I want him to see how desperately connected his decision is to the peaceful hopes of humanity.
Then, I am expecting him to have the strength and inner fire to stop UARC. This is the type of strength that we absolutely must have in our leaders, and it is the type of strength that I expect to see in the president of Our University. In the end this is the type of strength which balances out all the suffering, war and deception that lie on the other side of human nature. I truly hope, that for the hearts and spirits of the students, community, and Hawaiians that have invested themselves in stopping this UARC that Dr. McClain will find it within himself to use his position as a platform for endorsing the spread of such virtues.